A New Year Ahead

First Day of 2012 and for most of us, it is an optimistic day. Odd really...it is just an ordinary day. It has no religious meaning an celebrates no one special. It is just a day on a calendar really. But it signals hope for so many. Hope that in the next 365 days, change will happen and things will become better. So in the Spirit of this newfound hope for change resolutions are made and faith in oneself becomes somewhat restored. In spite of impending holiday bills and the bitter chill in the air (unless you live here) a more positive spirit starts to stir and the simple jump from one month to another becomes a fresh start. So, what do I plan to do with my fresh start? I plan to relish life since last year I started out as a shattered and broken woman. The ties that matter in my life are mostly positive ones, at least the people are. This year, I have a choice and my mind is clearer in order to make the right ones. I am going to find out what truly makes me tick. I am going to explore every passion in my life and be as eclectic and interesting as possible. I am going to take on new projects without fear and finish some unfinished projects. I am going to find and follow a path to financial stability on the more serious side of things and continue to try my best as a scholar. On the flip side, I believe my personality could use some improving as well. I am going to try to be more vivacious and when opportunities arise, I am going to try harder to recognize them as they come and embrace my chances wholeheartedly. Unconditional love has always been an issue for me since it has mostly been met with obliterating blows. But I am wise enough to know who derserves it at this point and I am going to try harder to show that to those who give it to me every day. I know everyone says they are going to shed the pounds as a resolution but I have been fighting this losing battle for about a year now and giving it a very half ass attempt, I might add. But for the sake of my own self esteem and the little shred of vanity I still possess. I know most people say for health reasons or some crap like that but if I said that I would be lying. I think this simply means smaller portions and even the smallest bit of regular exercise (at least that is what I have been told). I plan on relishing my children. I do this anyway but I want them to know it. I want my daughter to know that Snuggling her is the best thing in the world for me and that I would drop everything to do it. I want my son to know that all the things we do together are cherished by me. All the cooking, crafts, and games we play together I hope stick with him forever like they will with me. I want my husband to know that still have not forgotten how a night breaking into a car with a fishing pole can end and how much all the little surprises really mean to me. Basically, I want to live better, act stronger, and be more. I want to waste less time and gain more moments and memories. I want that feeling you get after seeing a riveting movie where just for a moment, as you walk out of that theatre, you feel like maybe, just maybe, you could be that hero or heroine, and maybe, just maybe, I too can take on the world and win.